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26.

I was born in 1990 and today I turned 26 years old. But I felt I have been born many times. I was reborn at the age of 18 when I left China for college in a small town in the US; again at the age of 20 when I decided to become a programmer; again at the age of 24 when I had Essure; and now, again.

In between 25 and 26, I became a serious runner and spoke fluent Spanish. I started running in 2015; I was merely bored with my life and decided to see if I have the capacity to do something I always hated, which is running. Then something happened and changed everything. In December 2015 I ran my first half marathon. I signed up for it because everyone I knew on Facebook seemed to have ran a half, and I wanted that as a milestone. Instead during the course of my training, I became the person who studies training plans and discusses them endlessly with friends and even strangers behind water fountains. The night I finished my first half, I signed up for a marathon. Then in the next few months, I signed up another two marathons. Running went from something I occasionally do to who I am.

Spanish is something I always wanted to learn, but never had the resource or time, until I moved to New York City two years ago. I went to the first class at Instituto Cervantes and just kept going. In August I traveled to Mexico City alone and suddenly found that I could understand almost everything. I also went on Spanish speaking day trips with Peruvian and Colombian tourists, went to cheer the Mexico City marathon and made friends with fellow Mexican marathoners, and we were planning to run the Rock’n’Roll half marathon together in Mexico City next March.

I’m a good student and I worked hard: I hardly missed any classes and I always do the homework and the required reading; I took a lot of notes and on Friday nights I would study them instead of going out. The classes were expensive at $580 per course, and that’s about 30 hours of class time. But it was all worth it.

It is this year that I became a new person again, the person not quite who I want to be, but much closer to the goal. I reinvented myself into a runner and a Spanish speaker. I had to, because the person I had been would never have been capable of. In the next year I will probably focus on getting better: run faster and learn to understand more Spanish dialect. And the person in 10 years will again be completely different from who I am now.

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In between the birthdays

November 4th, 2011, I turned 21.

From 20 to 21, my life took off in a new direction. I am an adult at 21. I read 15 books, passed Japanese N1 test, learned Java, took Spanish classes, got my first job and rented my first apartment.

Five men came to my life and left. I have to learn this before turning 22, that sex should not be casual, and inviting other people to uncover you can be dangerous. But it is unlikely that I can learn it now; I have to make more mistakes.

One of the most brilliant entrepreneurs passed away – Steve Jobs, and on the same day part of my iPod screen died. From reading his biography excerpt, the one previewed on Times (I will read the whole fat book later), I knew that I am not done with learning. I like his imagination: its delicacy, its brutal creativity, its profundity, its power to transform the material invention into art.

Maybe the reason I insisted on not settling down is: I want to have time for the unexpected.

I know love is like finding your way through the dark; you have to get your hands dirty. If you hold back, nothing interesting happens. At the same time, you have to find the right distance between people. Too close, and they overwhelm you; too far and they abandon you. How to stay in the right distance?

Maybe that’s the problem between Louis and me.

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I thought about Juan once.

Juan smells of Burberry Weekend. This maybe the reason I still cannot let go of him; the top note of grapefruit fascinates me. I bought a bottle at the duty free store at Haneda, and took it with me – to remember. Since we separated late August, for a long time, how often I am sitting in a classroom or cafe, or at a restaurant with friends, and all I want is for him to walk in the door. I am under the impression that at that moment everything will be all right. No one else is as good as he is. There is so much I want to say. Our love is more important than everything else. Yet I am aware how susceptible to illusion we all are. How disturbing it is that our illusions are often our most important beliefs.

But that was last summer, unfortunately.

真夏の夜

他不知道自己为什么要邀请这个女人。

他:“您什么时候离开北京?”

“明天下午。”她力图用轻松的口气回答。

他建议去一家甜品店,那里有他喜欢的芒果黑糯米加冻椰汁,他说她会喜欢。

17:49

她来到门口,等待侍者过来招呼他们就坐。不过他拉着她直接走进甜品店,在一张空桌子前坐下。看着她有些惊讶的表情,他解释在这里是不必等待侍者,自己找座位的。

18:11

她:“最喜欢的歌?我现在喜欢Radiohead”

他(不大肯定):“有好多呢,让我想想…”

18:24

她:“您去过美国吗?”

他:“从来没有…您知道,我从出生就在西安,从没出过国,最远只到过香港度假。”

她:“您该去一次纽约。”

他:“也许很快就…”

18:35

他喜欢她的与众不同,好像来自另外一个世界。她讲话有时候会用错俗语,她笑起来眯着眼睛。

19:20

离开甜品店,她看着他把拎着的口袋从左手换到右手,又换回左手,就伸手去帮他拿。

“不用,这个不沉。”他彬彬有礼地说。

但他流露出来的表情恰是相反的意思。

“我要是觉得沉再还给您。”她拿过3个口袋中的一个。

另外,我觉得您真是光彩照人。

她讲起正在施工的Waldorf Astoria大酒店,他很感兴趣,请她带他去。他们跟着Google地图寻找路线。

此刻是19:40

太阳终于西沉。

当身边车辆飞驰而过时,她把一只手搭在了他的小臂上,挽着他一起过马路。后来即便走在人行道上,她也没有移开自己的手。

如果我刚才告诉她我有女朋友,她还会来拉我的手吗?他尽量不去想。

他感觉自己被形势左右了。

他抽走手去为她开门,然后又主动拉起她的手。

尽管他们都没有开口,可这像是一场无声的对话。

19:50

他建议他们去后海。“这里没有underage drinking”他说。

19:52

他们在乘地铁。

她:“我只认识您十几天,了解您几十分钟。”

他去亲她的脸,然后她的嘴唇。她小心翼翼地躲开。

其他乘客向他们投来责备的目光。

目前,一切都好。

可时间不会滞留太久。

20:17

幸好今天人不多,他们可以有一个不被别人打扰的座位。在他们右边是一览无余的后海夜景。

他们起初面对面坐下。

然后,他提议她坐到他这边来。

20:30

在烛光下,她注意到他脸颊两侧的酒窝,以及一双大眼睛。她不喜欢大眼睛。尽管如此,他其他地方都不错。他还讲西安的方言给她听。

她深吸了一口气。她心跳得更快了,可她真不希望这样。

20:43

沉默。

她喝了一口鸡尾酒。

他看着远处,琢磨着那个嘈杂的都会,那么远,又那么近。

告诉她。

现在告诉她真相。

告诉她stop,你有女朋友。

20:51

她:“最喜欢的冰淇淋?”

他:“哈根达斯…”

她(耸了耸肩):“呸…”

他:“您说什么更好?”

她:“Ben and Jerry’s”

他:“我认识一个您会喜欢的餐馆。那里有 西安的特色。”

她:“您在向我推销吗?”

他:“完全不是,这还是一家我喜欢的餐馆。”他开始列举自己喜欢的菜。

她:“求您别说了,我都快馋了。”

他:“我会告诉您地址的。”

我会带您去的。

21:12

这可能是个好人,但不是好时候。

21:25

她:“最近给您留下深刻印象的是什么,关于北京?”

他:“那天暴雨在北京见到海。您呢?”

她:“这儿,今夜,此时此刻与您在一起。”

他(高兴但没有被蒙骗):“真的吗…”

21:30

很长一段时间,他们默默地听着驻场歌手抑扬顿挫的演绎。她的嗓音随着音符时而任性,时而嘶哑。歌曲诉说着萌动的爱情和由幻灭,忧伤,死亡留下的痕迹。

21:45

“到此为止吧”,他告诫自己,他还没有天真到相信一见钟情。

这是一个危险的女人。她富有生活的才能,她眼睛里有曾经让他非常难过的一种真挚。

随后他想起他的朋友对他说的话。为什么不“和她上床呢?”这并不犯法,但他把这个念头从头脑里赶走了。

因为他还没有做好准备。当然过去的几个小时让他感觉轻松,惬意,充满活力。这会是一个来去匆匆的幻象。

21:58

此刻,他在尽最大努力掩饰自己的激情。

他喝完了他的Tequila,她咽下了最后一口Margarita

她最后一次看着他和他身后的万家灯火。她感觉在演出一场浪漫喜剧,这些喜剧通常都有幸福的结局。可是她知道这好景不长。

22:00

现在是重新脚踏实地,走出萍水相逢的幻象的时候了。

他看着她:“其实…其实我有女朋友了。”

她惋惜地看着他,松开他的手。“那么再见啦,带我向您那一位问好。”

“等一等…我觉得这样分手不好,如果你愿意遵守不打听关于我女朋友的任何事…”

两个人谁也不相信命运,他们只相信偶然性。偶然性空前绝后地在此刻帮了他们做出体面的选择。

无论如何,幸福不是这个样子的。

可这幸福又如此短暂。

22:12

“我很抱歉,今天这个夜晚以这种糟糕的方式结束。”

但是,没什么关系。因为她储存了这些偷来时刻的影像,并将在想起他的时候放映,就像人们永不厌倦的一部老电影。

因为,有时候几小时的幸福足以让我们忍受生活必然带来的幻灭和丑陋。

To My Melancholy Lover

After the goodbye: (Updated on May 7, 2011)

“Han is typing,” Google chat box told me, helpfully.

Somehow it liked a strategy game, a game of intimacy and distance, of ideal life and reality, of things we’ve experienced and the make believes. “Don’t you dare get hurt by this,” I muttered to myself. I knew too well the danger and helplessness of falling for someone more sophisticated and secular. They’d say they loved you, but they were always after something. I knew that from the start.

I just typed “Goodnight” to Han. Goodnight, goodbye and good luck.

Here I go again, making another resolution and trying to regain my confidence one more time.

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Everyone who is interesting has a past.

The Glass Castle

You raised your head so I could look into your eyes and kiss you…

Continue reading “To My Melancholy Lover”

2010与2011之间

纯粹,不牵扯爱情,像是特别投机的路人的温暖 — 在这个冷冰冰,时刻有灾难降临,需要不停息地去填满孤独感的世界里,在茫茫人海中,随便两个人,都有可能相聚在同一屋檐下。

他的常常为所欲为让我困惑。

他问我有没有遇到过某个人,然后觉得“和她就这样过一辈子就很美,”我说没有。他没有再说下去,我们都沉默。好像这是全世界最伤心的事。

有的时候,一些人会遇见另一些人,相聚的契机或者并不高尚,大家也是毫无共同点的两种人,却会擦出无比闪亮的火花。这种遇见,往往不会一生一世,但在那一霎那,也绚烂美丽。就像这样,我同一个自己都不能理解的灵魂擦肩而过。

后来,当他说“她们都想见到我,那你呢?你想见到我吗,Daniel?”的时候,也许我明明很想,却不想当他面承认而没有说话。

也许我已经明白他和我是不同方向的,各自有得有失的命运。

Dan, please dream on.

后记:

上个星期六晚上,我的iPod里突然响起了Radiohead的歌,很好听。我从不知道自己有Radiohead的歌,于是我想到他,也许是他推荐给我的,或是他随便说过,我便留心记下来的。听着Radiohead我便想到要把和他的故事记下来,于是有了这一篇。

爸爸妈妈

我在美国读书,会听到别人这样对我讲,“Daniel,你现在一定要好好学习,争取以后留在美国,好把你的爸爸妈妈也接到美国,让他们在那里养老。”每一次我都是笑着反驳说,“我的目标是取得事业上的成功,赚很多钱给爸爸妈妈,让他们没有经济上的忧虑。然后他们可以选择去他们喜欢的地方,做他们喜欢的事。”

美国的确很棒。

可是世界这么大,难道我们只能呆在家里,遥想巴哈马群岛的粉色沙滩,阿尔卑斯山的雪和南极的企鹅吗?

我记起小时候看爸爸妈妈的相册,里面塞满了照片,有挂满钟乳石的山洞,布达拉宫,内蒙古草原,少林寺,天涯海角…都是他们在全国各地旅游时照的。他们喜欢到处走。

我也一样。于是我打定主意要周游世界,从我大学毕业开始。

我感激爸爸妈妈为我做的一切。

在别人吃喝玩乐,开新车,搬进城外的百万别墅的时候――我多嫉妒这种绵绵不绝的挥霍啊――爸爸妈妈仍然恪守 着中产阶级的生活方式,认真工作,作着计划,克制着不乱花钱,以此来得到我们拥有的一切。妈妈曾经说过,你每多受一年教育,以后的收入就会增加更多。为了我,妈妈通常可以六点起床,以保证我七点之前可以到达学校。

爸爸妈妈让我衣食无忧,鼓励我实现梦想;更重要的,他们培养我,但并不要求我成为他们。别的家长对他们的孩子说,成为医生,成为律师,成为领导人,或是接管家族企业…而我的爸爸妈妈,那样的话他们一句也不讲;他们只希望我做我自己。

很多过去人们重视的价值今天已经不复存在。

也许这并不是件坏事,我想。

那些由过去人定下的游戏规则,今天还有什么用呢?

就好比在结婚时,新郎新娘总是虔诚的说出誓词——他们会相爱到永远。可是,终其一生,他们只不过是活过70年到100年。连自己的生命都不是永恒存在的,又怎么能求永远相爱呢?

所以,永远,我从不讲这个词。我不自欺欺人。

直到现在,我还是不能理解养老是怎么被抬高为全中国人民的生活信条的。

为什么每个人都想把现在生活的方向建立在无尽的存款,杰出的下一代以及遥不可及的老去后的憧憬上?也许这就是它真正的诉求:表面上承诺能让你享受美丽的夕阳红,实际上却是在宣扬永无止境地工作。

我胳膊上的文身就是“freedom”。

在我看来,其实根本意义上的自由,是指你能够做出随心所欲的选择,可以决定是不是要为了尽人生的义务而放弃自由,进而义无反顾地投入其中。

爸爸妈妈给我自由;我可以选择人生中我要的。

我想要的是,更多的人生。

自从搬进了大房子,我总是坐在被爸爸的书架包围着的书桌前面,一刻不停地从上面抽书下来读。我的爸爸和邻居的那些男人们不一样,他们每天都把大部分精力花在抱怨差强人意的工 作上,而爸爸则是在闲暇时间里一刻不停地读书。时间是宝贵的,爸爸的珍惜时间使得我也害怕虚度光阴了。不过在书桌前浏览、沉思的时候,我发现什么也不做,有时候是做某件事情的最好方式。

我很讨厌小孩子,我把我的想法对爸爸妈妈这样说了,我说我不会结婚也不会生小孩。我喜欢到处走,梦想着周游世界——这也是我喜欢学语言的原因,学英语,学日语,学西班牙语…我想,我会死在走向下一个目的地的路上。

爸爸说,他不会限制我对我自己人生道路的选择;他只是希望我生活得满足而快乐。我确实考虑过爸爸为什么这样讲,他提这个建议可能只是因为我喜欢米兰.昆德拉和安迪.沃霍尔, 而他喜欢红楼梦和论语。到最后爸爸告诉我,从事一项不能给我的余生带来快乐的工作会让我绝望的。他在这方面显得充满智慧。

我小学4年级时就说过想去美国,那时候人人都笑话我。结果我做到了。我能做得到,我就是能。究竟是我有什么诀窍或者小伎俩,还是我本来就有神灵保佑,我也搞不清楚。梦想对那些能厚脸皮去奋斗的人来说是很简单的,可对那些犹豫不决,死要面子的人,又是如此可望而不可及。

智慧上的任何一点进步,都需要厚颜无耻来帮忙。

妈妈总是花时间认真同我说话。我和妈妈无话不谈。

我可以对妈妈讲Madonna和她最新的22岁男朋友的八卦,诅咒我讨厌的初中地理老师刘颖,也可以讲我的剧本计划——说我想拍一个关于同性恋的电影…妈妈一如既往地认真听着。

我到了大学以后打电话给她,向她抱怨学校食堂只有汉堡,pasta和pizza吃。她说:“你非得要跑那么远去美国干什么!这段路很长的。”

“我能坚持,况且除了吃,别的都不错。”我说。

总有人这么说,“Daniel有一天你会改变的,你会后悔你现在说过的话。”

我试着回想那些人。当我站在帝国大厦顶层俯视整个纽约市的时候;当我坐在出租车里抬头仰望Brooklyn Bridge那边灿烂的灯火时;当我欣赏过Wicked,走在回学校的路上时…我在想他们中间有谁知道应该怎样好好地生活。

我知道:保持无畏的快乐。

它的高级形式应该是由很多品质交织而成的:才智,魅力,幸运,发自内心的美德,以及智 慧,品味,知识,理解力,还有将苦痛与冲突视为生活中的一部分的胸襟。财富不是最基本的,可是让财富在必要之处迅速累积的智慧是最基本的。我觉得极富生活 天分的,是那些生活得自由自在的人,他们不断构想出伟大的计划,然后眼睁睁看着它们实现。这些人也是最佳的合作伙伴。我也会成为那样的人。

我会每个星期都给爸爸妈妈打电话,忙的时候一星期两三次,时间多就天天聊一会。

既然我放弃有一天做妈妈,就一辈子做个好女儿啦,还是要拉着爸爸妈妈的手过马路。

有一天我会变成小时候,然后爸爸妈妈就在那,永远也不离开我了…

101 things in 1001 days / Since March 15, 2009

The mission: to complete these 101 things in 1001 days, counting from March 15 , 2009.  The complete items will have a different color and maybe a picture link.
Progress will be tracked monthly,  any news on progress will be left in the comments.  This list is completed on December 12 , 2011.

Status Report:

FINISHED: 59/94

WORK IN PROGRESS: 7/94

NOT FINISH: 28/94

1. Get my first tattoo    Jun 13, 2009

2. Learn CAD

3. Visit North Korea Jul 15, 2010

4. Lose some weight until I’m 108 lbs ( always work in progress : )

5. Learn basic German

6. Read at least 1 book every month ( 33 in total )

    1. Oedipus the King
    2. 历史深处的忧虑
    3. The Thirty-nine steps
    4. The Heart is a Lonely Hunter
    5. 伊豆的舞女,雪国,古都,千只鹤
    6. 俗世奇人
    7. 一只狗的遗嘱
    8. 生活在别处
    9. 把时间当作朋友
    10. 纽约不怀旧
    11. Animal Farm
    12. What we talk about when we talk about love
    13. Code Version 2.0
    14. In Fact (Creative Nonfiction)
    15. Writing Down the Bones
    16. The Making of a Poem
    17. The Rape of Nanking
    18. Cathedral
    19. A Widow for One Year
    20. Fight Club
    21. On Chesil Beach
    22. Will you be quiet, please?
    23. 挪威的森林
    24. 日本小史
    25. Furious Seasons and other stories
    26. The House of the Spirits
    27. Raymond Carver: Collected Stories
    28. 曾国藩 (上中下)
    29. Intimacy
    30. Random Family
    31. The Glass Castle
    32. The Joy Luck Club
    33. Interview with the Vampire
    34. Yung Wing: My Life in China and America
    35. Tinkers
    36. Room
    37. Half Broke Horses
    38. Herland
    39. Brave New World
    40. The Handmaid’s Tale
    41. Ecotopia
    42. Bless Me, Ultima
    43. The Hunger Games
    44. Nothing to Envy
    45. The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas
    46. Falling through the earth: A Memoir
    47. The House on Mango Street
    48. A Pale View of Hills
    49. The Sense of an Ending
    50. Does the 21st Century Belong to China?
    51. Life of Pi
    52. The Spirit Catches You and You Fall Down
    53. The Design of Everyday Things

7. Donate blood

  • Jul 12, 2009

8. Learn some American Sign Language

9. Establish my 1st personal website ( you are reading it now )

  • shengkaidehua.com

10. Write a movie script

  1. 晨昏颠倒 is working in progress
  2. Children in the dark is working in progress

11. Ambidextrous ( work in progress )

12. Learn to sing as a diva

13. Volunteer work

  • Latham Food Bank   Aug 27, 2009
  • Oakwood Cemetery May 1, 2010

14. Visit Cuba or any other country in the Caribbeans

15. Learn basic Russian

16. Join the Honor IT Society

17. Plant trees

18. Get a scholarship in college

19. Learn to dance ( work in progress )

20. Travel across the USA by car (From Troy NY to San Antonio, TX, March 8 to March 16)

21. Read “Cien años de soledad” (One Hundred Years of Solitude) in Spanish

22. Get an autograph & photo from Tom Cruise

23. Read Ulysses

24. Send postcards to friends whenever I travel

25. Do a co-op or an internship

26. Learn C++

27. Watch 101 movies

  1. Grand Hotel
  2. The Short Films of David Lynch
  3. Diary od a lost girl
  4. Wallace & Gromit:
  5. Night and Fog
  6. Bolt
  7. 入殓师
  8. An affair to Remember
  9. Shanghai Express
  10. Ninotchka
  11. My life without me
  12. Ice Age: 3
  13. The Trip
  14. Cruel Intentions
  15. Yes Man
  16. Dance MOViES 2007-2008
  17. White Sky
  18. Dance MOViES 2008-2009
  19. 东邪西毒
  20. 薔薇の葬列
  21. Far From Heaven
  22. Encounter at the end of the world
  23. The Cove
  24. Cloudy with a chance of meatballs
  25. 耳をすませば
  26. The Beaches of Agnes
  27. Memories
  28. Donnie Darko
  29. Los Abrazos rotos
  30. Ghost in the shell 1995
  31. Ghost in the shell 2004: Innocence
  32. あの夏、いちばん静かな海
  33. Un homme et une Femme
  34. Cleo de 5 a 7
  35. Experiment in Terror
  36. Chung Kuo 中国
  37. ゆれる
  38. Tokyo Godfathers
  39. North Korea: A day in the life
  40. Seoul Train
  41. Darwin’s Nightmare
  42. Salt
  43. Superstar: The Karen Carpenter Story
  44. Passionless Moments
  45. Ghost in the shell 2003
  46. 新世紀Evangelion (26 Episodes)
  47. Yes Men Fix the World
  48. Blow up
  49. Paradox Rules
  50. Russian Ark
  51. The Take
  52. Toy Story 3
  53. 新世紀Evangelion: Air/ まごころを、君に
  54. Day & Night
  55. Meshes of the afternoon
  56. Mala Noche
  57. When you’re strange
  58. Black Swan
  59. 世界の中心で、愛をさけぶ
  60. Letters to Juliet
  61. Dead Poets Society
  62. Knight and Day
  63. Reservoir Dogs
  64. The Red Shoes
  65. Cries and Whispers
  66. Babel
  67. Touch of Evil
  68. A Railway for two
  69. Stand Alone Complex
  70. The Trueman Show
  71. Pleasantville
  72. The Handmaid’s Tale
  73. V for Vendetta
  74. Sin Nombre
  75. Mission Impossible IV
  76. La piel que habito
  77. Haywire
  78. The woman in Black

28. Keep in better touch with old friends

29. Do some crossword puzzles

30. Go to the gym regularly

31. Donate at least 5000 grains of rice a month at  Free Rice

32. Get my driving license in NYS (November 2012)

33. Pick up playing piano

34. 日本語の勉強

35. Try to take the Japanese Language Proficiency Test and get through Level 2

36. Convince 1 people to make his/her “101 things in 1001 days” : Tian did =)

37. Make a wine label for my parents’ small production

38. Learn equestrian

39. Send 200 postcards through Postcrossing

40. Learn Cantonese till conversational level

41. Make a T-shirt

42. Try to learn to hang upside down

43. Visit my teachers in High school & Junior High during vacation (August 2012)

44. Take photos with Mena in summer vacation

45. Draw 10 postcards and send them

46. Call my mom and dad every week (In fact I almost did it everyday)

47. Finish my GRE vocabulary lesson 

48. Learn to play the guitar

49. Donate $50 to Postcrossing after I receive 70 cards

50. Make a list of Clubs & Organizations I will join in college

51. Learn the skills of public speaking

52. Get excellent score in Calculus (I got 100!)

53. Learn to play Ice Hockey (at least have a try)

54. Make a shopping list before I go to college

55. Get through my VISA interview      Jun 9, 2009

56. Learn some linux (I’m using Ubuntu now :)

57. Write a real  letter to someone

58. Keep updating my blog

59. Taste typical food of a country I’ve never tried before

  • I found out that I like Indian food :)   Thank you, Varun~~

60. Get teeth whitened

61. Watch all seasons of CSI : Las Vegas

62. Buy a Digital Camcorder and use it

63. Sew a picture for Mena and surprise her!

64. Tell my ex that I’ve really loved him before I leave for college

65. Keep Smiling

66. Give an umbrella to a stranger in the rain

67. Persuade my dad to quit smoking

68. Fold paper trees, and use them to decorate my room

69. Go to a first-aid course

70. Apply for dual major, or co-terminal

71. Go to a writing course   09’Fall, Creative Writing

72. Join the varsity swimming club

73. Try o.b.        (Jul, 2009)

74. Be a mentor

75. Perform in a multicultural show

76. Visit the New York Film Forum

77. Take photos with new friends and send them to my mum

  • with Alison!

78. Get a job!

79. Take a picture on Empire State Building

80. Taking Spanish at Instituto Cervantes

81. Write a request of proposal for my film project and send it to a producer! (This is really brave)

82. GPA 4.0, at least in one semester :(

83. Learn Java

84. Finish an online course (whatever it is!)

  • Dec 15, 2010, finished the online course for my Japanese language test preparation

85. Read Kafka on the shore in Japanese

86. Grow long hair

87. Learn to bake apple pie and make one for my parents ♥

88. Teach Chinese and start a club at school

89. Send Mena an RPI bear as a gift

90. Make a Short film [A Day in the Life] Sep 23, 2010

91. Make a list of all my childhood animes

92. Take the GRE once ( Do I need this to get in grad school? )

93. Read the Bible

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101. Write another ” 101 things in 1001 days ” or another future plan like this